Frugal exercise, part deux. . . .

I've been largely silent over the past several days, primarily because the thought of logging in and viewing that gigantic number that represents my student loan debt makes me kind of sick. However, I guess the first step to conquering any obstacle is actually facing it, making peace with it, and studying it to determine how best to get past it. That will be a long process, I know, and my student loan debt won't be something that will go away in a month, or a year, or even probably five years.

In the meantime, I need to keep adding to my savings (which will carry me through next year when I won't be able to work full time, due to school commitments) and keeping my expenditures low.

A few months ago, I wrote about my need for more exercise---as the days have gotten shorter (and darker and less sunny), that need has just become much greater! I often hibernate in the winter, and this year is no exception. I've not motivated myself to get exercise DVD's out of the library, and running outside has been spotty at best. For that reason, I decided to renew my membership to the gym---although I did it frugally: I waited until the gym had a 'no initiation fee' special, saving me $50! So, after a year of frugality, I'm adding a regular, $30 expense back into my budget. I feel like my health (and my mood) requires this.

To offset this, I'm going to try to decrease the amount I'm spending on groceries, as this number as inched past $125 over the last few months, as I've waited to tally my expenditures until the end of the month, rather than keeping track as I go along. Maybe I'll start publishing my budget again, to keep myself a bit more accountable. Did any of you find that interesting, at all? If so, perhaps I'll start that again as of January 1.

Ouch.

Well, I did it. I logged into my SallieMae account (I had to create a new password, it had been so long). The amount I owe on my student loan is just a bit more than I had anticipated. My indebtedness to the U.S. government is:

$56,915.91

I'm not really sure how to go about tackling this, because it's just so overwhelming to me. Of course, while I'm dithering about, getting another degree (paying for it myself, this time), and generally trying to ignore the elephant in the room, interest is accruing on this bad boy.

In fact, if I were to make the 'required' $437.33 payment for the next 21 years, I would end up paying a total of $112,453.65. Which is simply unacceptable. By my rough calculations, I would have to pay almost $400 a month just to cover the interest payments alone (my consolidated interest rate is at 8.25%, which cannot be changed).

So, I'm trying not to cry at this point. I know, deep down, that this is just going to take a degree of creativity (and lots and lots of time), as well as some major changes in terms of my income and my expenditures.

Right after I go out and buy and devour a bar of organic chocolate, I think I need to spend some time searching the blogosphere for those motivating success stories, from 'real people' like me who overcame the odds and paid off similar (and even larger) debts than mine.

Frugality continued. . . .

Whew! Well, I've reveled in my lack of credit card debt over the past three days, since Thanksgiving. Now, it's time to plan for the future, which is going to require continuing my frugal ways. I do still have that student loan debt, after all. I'm just not sure I'm going to start paying it off yet, for reasons I'll explain below:

In the Fall of 2009---almost a year from now---I'll most likely have to drop to 75% of full time at my day job, to account for an unpaid practicum experience that is required in my graduate program. I'll probably need two full days during the week for the entire academic year (2009-2010) to take care of this requirement. Which means, of course, that my income will plummet during that year. I've been avoiding thinking about this complication, because I really wasn't sure how I was going to be able to pay my mortgage and eat with a decreased income. However, now that I'm credit card debt-free, I feel like anything is possible!

Here's what I'm currently thinking I'll do to prepare for this. I'm going to try, starting on January 1, to live on just my salary from the day job. Then I can 'bank' the earnings from my night job, which will allow me to dip into that savings during the year that I can't work a full time paid job during the day. This is going to require some very creative budgeting, especially since I would like to now send 15% of my earnings into my 403(b) plan, since I dropped it to 1% while I was in debt-repayment mode.

Anyway, all of this means that my student loan debt repayment will most likely need to be put on hold, which bums me out. A commenter a few weeks ago mentioned her own student loan debt struggle, and it motivated me to start thinking about getting rid of this debt. At this point, I can't even bring myself to look at my account, to see how much I owe (last time I checked I think it was about $55K). I'm scared to know. That's how bad it is.

Who knows? Maybe the economy will miraculously recover in time for me to sell my house next summer, and this will all be moot. Then I could send that savings straight to my student loan, and really get started on becoming truly debt free! I'm not holding my breath on the economy, though. . . .

As you can see, this 'plan' is a bit of a work in progress; I admit that I haven't even really worked the numbers out yet with my zero based budget spreadsheet, nor have I made the change to my retirement savings. My objective this week is to get all of this worked out, so I can start the New Year with a new financial goal.